Thought been married was great and a great partnership, don't get me wrong. I love my husband very much but he travels all the time and i am so lonely without him that life has become so unbearable, i am distracted all the time, the only time I seem normal now is when i am at work. There is no one in my friends/family that i can talk to as they will start going on and on about the fact that they were not there when we got married or this and that.
I can't really tell my husband how i feel because i understand how important his career is to him as well. Being lonely, it makes it so easy to do something stupid like hook up with other guys but i am not into things like that. There is no one in my life that i could say was my hero in the marriage department as all the men in my family have cheated on their wives at a certain time in their marriage. Even my father has cheated on the mother, but they are not aware of the fact that i know about it as i was told by my aunt.
There is an ex boyfriend who still calls me even though i am married and tells me that he loves me, he will wait for me and that i am his soul mate. Because i am so lonely without my husband i enjoy hearing this from him as it makes me smile, i know its wrong and i will never leave my husband for him but i can't help myself. I know he is an ex for reason and i don't want to be one of those people who cheat on their other halves because of distance.
WHAT AM I GONNA DO?
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